I must be honest. I have started about 10 blog entrys, including a few replies to posts. I have deleted them all. I'm not sure that i have one complete coherent thought left in my head. I start to type, then i delete, then i undo, then i backspace, then i just quit. I am afraid of all of you!!!! I think I'm trying too hard. So, instead of trying to be somewhere I'm not (in the mode of intellectual thinking) I will be as i am (entrenched in my family and the goings-on therein).We are going to Florida tomorrow to visit my grandparents, Nana Great and Papa Chuck, to Ellie. Its me, my mom and the girls. I think i might be crazy to try to do this without my husband. Its going to be a girls weekend (lotsa girls + my papa).
I am looking forward to being in the sun, taking ellie to the beach, and giving her the opportunity to know her Great grandparents. I am also secretly hoping to get a tan and read a magazine, perhaps while my mom and nana goo over the baby and ellie takes a nap). The weather is supposed to be lovely, so I am excited for the trip.....so we'll be there until Tuesday. Then, on Thursday (yep, two days later) our family, including the husband this time, will all go out west to Oregon for 5 days to visit my sister Jenny and her fiance Rob. That should be super fun - I can't wait to see Jennys apartment and to get a feel for her new life out there, in the west. I have alot of fear about these next two weeks....kids could get sick, they could be up all night, i will really miss Dion while we're in Florida....I am thankful, however that I am able to travel to see people i love. So, hopefully I can act like it. ie. let go of my fear and just roll with it and have fun. :)
Now before I overthink this, read it a thousand times hoping i didn't spell something wrong or offer an incomplete thought, resulting in the deleting and quitting...I am gonna "publish post"....
5 comments:
oh how i'll miss you :(
My mom probably knows exactly how you feel. She is alot like you in this respect. She gets worried about what people may think of what she says or wether she has anything good or complete to say.
She also gets worried on trips and doesnt think she can do it without someone (not it's my grandpa). But now shes getting better.
Hm...i sense similarities. maybe you and my mom should hang out. =P
Hey girl! Yeah, it took me six months to finally decide to post and then the first took about an hour to write... same thing... delete... revise... i'm dumb... revise... delete... funny thing is, I'd rather read about your going-on's than anything intellectual any day!
I took this same kind of trip after Eli was born without Ben. My advice... DON'T worry, accept help and work on that tan- you deserve it!
Love you guys!
Joc - don't worry about the misspellings or bad grammer. I sure don't. There will be errors and they just don't really matter.
Have fun on the vactaion and let go. Relax where you can. And, enjoy Oregon. Have a safe trip.
Just reading for the first time...just wanted to say I miss you.
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